So, Jillian McTaggart you don’t run my life and you have to confirm with me if I have an appointment first.
I just wanted to confirm with yourself our next appointment on Thursday 11th of November at 10am at the Southwark hub, as I know you stated you have an eye test tomorrow morning
Living With Chronic Anxiety
I remember my life when I was a carefree little girl
Who moved from the location I was born to live at our own land?
The place was Ga-Ga Street that my brother ASHTER named Palmetto Close
The most abiding memory that stands out for me
Was running from where we live and falling at the entrance of the Street
Cutting my forehead open on the stone protruding from the ground
I am sure I got up went back home and have the scar as proof
I have concluded this was a chance to build my resilience
That was to see me survive one adversity after another
There were many challenges to follow
Which were part of the TRUAMAS I experienced
With each disaster I created I was helped to carry on
I learned to cook gathering stuff from the garden
But not knowing the laws of nature I suffered for my ignorance
And refuse to eat certain foods
There was the time dad had to cut the rings that were twisted off my finger
I have the scar to prove that too
With knowledge comes power, I must have been a clumsy child.
As far as I can recall I had a happy childhood as can be expected
Growing up with a loving family in a village that raised the child
Being an only girl, I was more than privilege to lavish
And accept the relationships with those in my family network
I enjoyed the things that were part of my transitional development
I have recorded some of my cherished moments growing up
I am still trying to work out when my life was turned upside down
That is the time I changed from the fearless Tom Boy
To a panic-stricken little girl who was shy and covering up my nervousness
If a child lives with ridicule it learns to be shy
I can still recall my first panic attack when an old man threatened me
For my cheekiness in taking up a dare
But am positive the rest of my ailments is/were psychological
My father’s illness was the turning point for my decline into TRAUMAS
My Personal Challenges over the next 10+ years did not help
If a child lives with criticism it learns to condemn
I turned my anger unto my father’s God for allowing him to suffer
And stopped going to the Townhead Baptist Church where I did not feel I belong
The signs and symptoms of my father’s Parkinson’s disease manifested in me
If a child lives with shame it learns to be guilty
My father beats me once for swearing so when GOD allowed my dad to suffer
I curse in my head and rebelled against a GOD that allowed my family to be poor
I was torn between my upbringing of a compassionate GOD that allowed
My Aunt to die whilst fasting, uncles to be murdered, mum to bears the burdens
My grandmas to suffer losses of their sons to disabilities and murder
And Mum’s Mother dying of a broken heart
The last to see dad alive and first to find him dead
And Mama saying in disbelief he can’t be dead he did not get a drink of water
I was at the end of the phone when Mama got her drink of water
If a child lives with security, it learns faith
The discrimination of the past 7 years stripped me of my dignity
As the SYSTEMS colluded to make me a criminal in the eyes of the laws
How do I come to terms with what happened to me after experiencing bereavement and losses?
I am a criminal because of my disabilities and the SYSTEMS covering for LEYF
If a child lives with hostility it learns to fight
At times I feel like giving up because once again my family and friends
Join forces with the enemies to discriminate against me
I can no longer trust my son and some of my brothers
I do not deserve to be discriminated against by LEYF after the death of my mother
The past 7 years have taken tolls on me
If a child lives with tolerance it learns to be patient
I am back to when I was a child praying for GOD to heal my father
Instead, my uncles were murdered, my brother ASHTER died in jail
I helped to bury him so could not afford to go for his funeral
Even though he prepared his Programme and wanted me to be involved
I could not believe that GOD still have it in for me
When BYRON was stricken with colon cancer
I was finishing my studies with the Open University
Did not want to miss the chance to be a graduate
Ask my brother for his permission not to attend his funeral
In return I promise him on his death bed with his wife relaying the messages
To help my niece through school
To “Experience the Multiple Discrimination” I did again after mum’s death
Is just too much to bear, but to push me over the edge
Impose Emotional Regulation Treatment entrapment
Making me a criminal until weeks before my husband’s 100th birthday
Is verging on the Mental Enslavement of BLACK PEOPLE
In the Mother Country now Richard Harty denies me my rights to repair my disabilities.
Can you please inform Julie that I need a contact telephone number or email for her please? She has done what Jillian McTaggart did. She changed my appointment without consulting me. She best doesn’t let me address this in the Public Domain. I am not a Criminal and her Prisoner lock up and let out at her decision. I am a carer and have a life before Paedophiles from LEYF to the UK Government decided to Discriminate against me to cover for June O’Sullivan the pervert.
Written by: Mervelee Myers FD (Open)
Mental Health & SEND Advocate
Date: 7 October 2021
Copyright of Mervelee Myers via Copyright Act 1976 Section 107 “Fair Use”. With my Intellectual Property and Image Rights online at Social Media & the WWW & the Internet.
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